Pink Moon

April 6th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Funny how often I write about Pink Moon. The famous Nick Drake song.

This year the pink moon will fall on what would have been my mom’s 73rd birthday. I miss her so much, still everyday. But, at the same time I am so glad she is not here experiencing this pandemic. I worry about my dad, but my mom I would have freaked out about daily. Social distancing, not going out, she would have laughed and ignored me, nevermind her useless b/f waste of breathe he was, he would have just told her not to worry, and go get him whatever he wanted at the store, as he was to damn lazy to go himself.

I went to work today – mainly to water plants, get my monitor and stuff to set up my home area a little better. My next goal is a decent chair, not an ugly one though, boy is that hard.

Week 3…I think

April 5th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Time is fluid, I mean we all know that. It feels like yesterday I started Shelter In Place and last year both. This week was productive, cooking, baking, and cleaning. Plus work 🙂

This weekend alone I made: bread and also Alison Roman’s: The cookies were great, they always are, but the bread was a little bland, might use whole wheat flour next time, and add some fold ins.

Other than that, my bathroom is clean, my makeup brushes are clean and my laundry done and packed away.

Delta refunded my Atlanta flight, and now to get my flight to SA refunded :(. But on the plus side, I am getting better at working out in my apartment, I am learning some new moves, and getting better in my form.

Another month to go.

April 4th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Yesterday’s walk. Practicing social distancing was easy as very few people were out. Which is eerie and reassuring at the same time. Spring is here. So many flowers and birds out. The birds were all a twitter, lovely to spend time watching them. #shelterinplace #fridayafternoon #sf #blossoms #birds #bay (at San Francisco, California)

Mishima – Death Poem

April 3rd, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

A small night storm blows
Saying ‘falling is the essence of a flower’
Preceding those who hesitate

— Yukio Mishima

April 2nd, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Rice Pudding
By AA Milne

What is the matter with Mary Jane?
She’s crying with all her might and main,
And she won’t eat her dinner – rice pudding again –
What is the matter with Mary Jane?

What is the matter with Mary Jane?
I’ve promised her dolls and a daisy-chain,
And a book about animals – all in vain –
What is the matter with Mary Jane?

What is the matter with Mary Jane?
She’s perfectly well, and she hasn’t a pain;
But, look at her, now she’s beginning again! –
What is the matter with Mary Jane?

What is the matter with Mary Jane?
I’ve promised her sweets and a ride in the train,
And I’ve begged her to stop for a bit and explain –
What is the matter with Mary Jane?

What is the matter with Mary Jane?
She’s perfectly well and she hasn’t a pain,
And it’s lovely rice pudding for dinner again!
What is the matter with Mary Jane?

April 1st, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Death, be not proud (Holy Sonnet 10)

By John Donne

Death, be not proud, though some have called thee
Mighty and dreadful, for thou are not so;
For those whom thou think’st thou dost overthrow
Die not, poor Death, nor yet canst thou kill me.
From rest and sleep, which but thy pictures be,
Much pleasure; then from thee much more must flow,
And soonest our best men with thee do go,
Rest of their bones, and soul’s delivery.
Thou’art slave to fate, chance, kings, and desperate men,
And dost with poison, war, and sickness dwell,
And poppy’or charms can make us sleep as well
And better than thy stroke; why swell’st thou then?
One short sleep past, we wake eternally,
And death shall be no more; Death, thou shalt die.

Week 2.5

March 31st, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Half way through week 2, I think, added another 4 weeks so we are under shelter in place until May 1st. I had a melt down Sunday, it is overwhelming at times. I don’t want to get sick, but I am frustrated by so much. I would love a hug, you know, just a hug.

My concentration also is not great, I lose focus on my tasks. But, I know I can master this. Sleeping has been ok, just doing a little more which is funny, normally I sleep about 6 hours total, now I am doing 8 or so. Plus my skin is great as not touching my face (or trying not too), and sticking to the no sugar (apart from what I bake), which I think is a fair trade off.

I missed my sister’s anniversary – married 13 years! And now my nephew’s birthday 11 today. His friends drove passed and waved and sung to him, which is sweet, but kids feel this stuff a lot more, so sad for him. He is such a social kid, and kind.

Talking to more people online, which is nice and facetiming others, which I tend not to do a lot, which is also nice, but worried about my Dad, and my Grandmother (97!) and all my family so far away.

whine whine whine, I am healthy, I have a roof, a place to stay, a a job, food and running water, I really have it good. I can be disappointed, but I can’t dwell, otherwise I know I will go into depression. So I have silly projects.

Granny having a smoke

March 27th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Damn that is a lot of hair. Just got fun no blow dryer or straightener for a change. Just a poufy cloud. (at San Francisco, California)

March 25th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

What shelter in place makes you do! Fresh baked banana 🍌 bread ( no raisins or nuts 😊). So my family does not think I am starving without eating out! #shelterinplace #2020 #sf #bananabread (at San Francisco, California)

Week 1

March 22nd, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

So it has been week 1 isolating, staying away from people – we started shutting down the office Thursday, Friday it was a skeleton crew and Monday it was time to start shelter in place (SIP). What a strange time.

Am I scared? Yes, I am an asthma sufferer, and so every wheeze makes me worry. At the same time, I am pretty healthy apart from feeling old and decrepit at times.. But, I suppose that is aging.

I think the hardest thing is the lack of structure, and then the lack of human contact. I talk to so many people daily, but alone is fine, but I miss the banter. The first few days were harder as I had to find a schedule and implement it. Then to put clothes on and not just work in PJs is also hard. But, I think it is better.

I miss gym, the regular going gave my days a lot of focus. I just missed one cousin’s wedding in the UK, and I am going to miss anothers soon I think in New York. Plus all the shows that have been cancelled – the first year ever I bought so many tickets in advance.

I am not going to ATL this coming week, so will not see my sister and nephews :(, and that really sucks. No Jessica in April either. everyone is stuck I know, but it feels so scary.

But, I think the hardest thing is not knowing when I will see Donovan again. I mean long distance is hard, but I can cope, as I know we are together and then everytime we see each other it is special. But now, when do I see him? It is really hard. I wish we were closer, so at least I would have someone to be with me, but then my apartment is pretty small, and that would be difficult as well.

I think this coming week is baking week, I need an extra outlet. Oh and extra walking plus, I will be doing online fitness classes.

March 20th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

re these kodama that are lost in #sf?

Kodama (木霊, 木魂 or 木魅) are spirits in Japanese folklore that inhabit trees, similar to the dryads of Greek mythology. The term is also used to denote a tree in which a kodama supposedly resides.

This little chalk drawing brightened my walk.

#chalkdrawings (at San Francisco, California)

March 20th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

My new daily walk is up to @gracecathedral and then around the neighborhood. I see so much! All the flowers are starting to bloom, I saw a hummingbird, many starlings and lots of dogs. But I love the details around the park and buildings, gates and gate knockers. #horsehead #knocker, #turtlefoundation #shelterinplacesanfrancisco #2020 (at Grace Cathedral, San Francisco)

March 18th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Keeping healthy with my #vitamix soup. Filled with greens: steamed broccoli, pea shoots, spinach and almond milk. I find it tasty and filling. #broccoli 🥦 #day2 #shelterinplacesanfrancisco (at San Francisco, California)

March 15th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

My Sunday recap! Walking past @fnnch mural on Larkin Street, buying a little plant @planttherapysf and stopping @mrholmesbakehouse for a treat. Quiet day. No one out and staying away from high traffic areas. #fnnch #planttherapy #treats #sf #sanfrancisco (at Tenderloin, San Francisco)

March 15th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

RIP #genesisporridge your bands made my life better. I might not have loved everything you did and said and created, but I always respected your uncompromising attitude. #psychictv #throbbinggristle #rip #s/he (at San Francisco, California)