May 26th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

My apartment feels like a flower shop from all the lovely flowers I got for my birthday. So lovely. I can’t believe the variety and colours. #flowers #proteas #peonies #lilies (at San Francisco, California)
https://www.instagram.com/p/CAodSWFp3Aj/?igshid=hod1lxrhgumq

May 25th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Listen/purchase: Across The Depths of Seven Lakes by Picture One

May 23rd, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Wow I made it to 2020. #happybirthday #shelterinplace2020 (at San Francisco, California)
https://www.instagram.com/p/CAjASbVp0GE/?igshid=1luwvgoobwu8j

Past Present Now

May 19th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

My morning in three pictures

Before coffee
Coffee ☕️
After coffee

#coffee
#sf
#shelterinplace
#monday (at San Francisco, California)
https://www.instagram.com/p/CAWqWxMprp0/?igshid=yxsunhxmv041

Weekend

May 17th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Pictures from yesterday! My new shirt from @currentelliott / @thevampireswife collaboration. My lovely peonies and diary. Some neat graffiti and signs all over SOMA here in #sf. #posing #shelterinplace2020 #peonies #hobonichi (at San Francisco, California)
https://www.instagram.com/p/CARlnC9prIt/?igshid=s4a8hh1lhv5b

i don’t know

May 16th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

my birthday next week. 9 weeks, of shelter in place. i don’t know if i can keep doing it. i try so hard to keep it together, i talk to others, i make plans to do dance night, movie night etc. but i am so lonely, i go to farmers market, i go to work once, sometimes twice a week alone, the office is quiet, normally just me and others in and out.

today i worked out over zoom, took a long bathe, and made lunch. read my book and started to make bread. i am also making cookies, and will start the bo ssam pork roast and tmr i will make the butter chicken as i have all the ingredients. but, food is about sharing, i want some one else to eat with me, comment, give me feedback.

i am tired, tired tired.

Bread – Sourdough

May 11th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

With my sourdough starter from @ichbinjmh today I made a huge loaf of very tasty bread! Crunchy crust, soft interior. With the starter discard I made some crumpets! The honey melted in very quickly but the contrast of honey and sourdough crumpet was sublime. The savory ones I topped with a scattering of cheese and scallions, plus some avo! A good lunch. #sourdoughbread #baking #sf #shelterinplace (at San Francisco, California)
https://www.instagram.com/p/CACBd29JGG3/?igshid=1o6u9tu48dyhg

Sourdough

May 10th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Guess whose starter is out of control! Let me know if you need some! (at San Francisco, California)
https://www.instagram.com/p/CABimJ5JN1i/?igshid=vkn224bwpupl

How Long?

April 29th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

48 days and counting, almost 8 weeks.

I have not learnt a new skill, mastered a new language, deep cleaned my apartment, gotten super fit etc.

I have, cooked, eaten, slept, worked out and lived.

Which is harder? People talk about grief and depression, I feel bad for them. I am sad, but not depressed, I am upset but not angry. When I moved to SF I was depressed. When my relationship ended I was depressed, and battled. But now? I am just sad. We are a people on a single planet with no empathy. We live in a marvellous world and we barely look up. We value experiences as much as we can post a video or photo. We live to work, not work to live.

I don’t want that. I made these choices a long time ago, what I wanted and what I value. This has made it clearer. I still don’t miss TV, or more stuff, oh, I miss the camaraderie around it, but I don’t miss the desire to see what happens. Most stuff seems pointlessly cruel and mean spirited.

I miss having a partner with me, to cook with, to do things with, to talk over ideas with. To hold hands with. To go on walks with, debate what to cook, and disagree with.

SF is prettier without all the traffic and rush and clusterness of people, but now also highlights the intense unequal distribution of wealth. So many have nots, due to so many factors, and everyone wants an easy answer. But, unless the USA starts helping out with mental health and loses the ‘pull you up by the bootstraps’ scenario/dream, it is not happening.

hair and out and about

April 27th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Did my hair and make up today – look I know how to do eyeliner still! For my social distancing walk to Embarcadero! Watched a giant ship dwarf the bay bridge as it came in, and to show I am eating healthy my lovely breakfast of strawberries, blueberries, passion fruit, greek yogurt and a smidge of granola. #shelterinplace #containership #baybridge #sf #breakfast (at San Francisco, California)
https://www.instagram.com/p/B_d9LRLJ0i_/?igshid=qq8vsftl4kmv

empty

April 23rd, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Very empty street in sf today around midday. #shelterinplace #sf #downtown (at San Francisco, California)
https://www.instagram.com/p/B_TvDUUph-f/?igshid=1r5inpllbofeh

Flowers, Ring

April 16th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Today I treated myself to flowers at the Farmer’s Market and on Sunday I found a wishbone ring that fits my thumb perfectly. #beauty #protea #ring (at San Francisco, California)
https://www.instagram.com/p/B_BkqTdJiua/?igshid=uunb1yofmpmp

Badtzi

April 12th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

I kept feeling Badtzi around me last night, like he came back to take me with him, I miss my kitties so much, but him more than anything. He was so smart and so sweet.

Maybe he misses me? And wants to come with him?

It is the second death feeling I have had in a week. Last week it was the death of a dog, which seems to be a portent for the death of a friend. I hope I am wrong.

Sutro Baths Trip

April 12th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

Today’s excursion, all the wildflowers are in bloom and although everything was grey, seeing the sea was immensely soothing. #shelterinplace2020 #sutrobaths #wildflowers
https://www.instagram.com/p/B-3YeLfp43T/?igshid=1amb3k9l8sh5j

Happy Birthday Mommy

April 8th, 2020 § 0 comments § permalink

You would be 73 today!

I love you