sainthood is fleeting
Well, today was unexpected! Never mind electoral college, rather people storming the Capital and people getting shot. And then the blame game, fuck me! I watched it live, thanks to the magic of twitch streaming, and it was proud boys, white supremacists (are they the same?), mainly overweight white men, but not all – a […]
I got tested today, for the first time! Isn’t that amazing? I had the antibodies test back in September I think, or later but no real worries about exposure. Last weeks flight back to SF was the first time I was scared I was exposed. I waited 6 days to get my test, so antibodies […]
Today is the first Monday of 2021, that means all healthy habits start today, all New Year Resolutions etc. What a burden to be a Monday you carry this heavy load. Practically rocks, and by Thursday it has fallen away. All the advice lately is make small changes, incremental that you can continue, what a […]
Sometimes sadness tastes like gummy bears, that sickly cloying taste that overwhelms you.
Well I made it through 2020, not how i thought i would either. I look back at 2020’s January 1st posting, and I am shocked how happy and carefree things feel, when in reality the virus was bearing down already. How could we know so little, be so connected and yet so disconnected? Hopes and […]
My bff got engaged! I am so happy :), my bestest friend got engaged to his long time g/f and I could not be happier. Congratulations Greg! I love you!
So a distant friend, someone I know who I have not seen in a while, but still like and would hug when I see them died last week. Brian Dotson will be greatly missed, not just because he knew a million people or because he ran a nightclub in the 2000’s but rather because of […]
“PITY THE NATION” Lawrence Ferlinghetti(After Khalil Gibran) Pity the nation whose people are sheep And whose shepherds mislead them Pity the nation whose leaders are liars Whose sages are silenced And whose bigots haunt the airwaves Pity the nation that raises not its voice Except to praise conquerers And acclaim the bully as hero And […]
I am a racist – what a hard sentence to write out. I am not one consciously, but i have plenty of white privilege, I have lived an easy life, not constantly wondering if the police, security guards, military are going to find my life expendable. I try really hard not to judge people by […]
48 days and counting, almost 8 weeks. I have not learnt a new skill, mastered a new language, deep cleaned my apartment, gotten super fit etc. I have, cooked, eaten, slept, worked out and lived. Which is harder? People talk about grief and depression, I feel bad for them. I am sad, but not depressed, […]
I kept feeling Badtzi around me last night, like he came back to take me with him, I miss my kitties so much, but him more than anything. He was so smart and so sweet. Maybe he misses me? And wants to come with him? It is the second death feeling I have had in […]
Funny how often I write about Pink Moon. The famous Nick Drake song. This year the pink moon will fall on what would have been my mom’s 73rd birthday. I miss her so much, still everyday. But, at the same time I am so glad she is not here experiencing this pandemic. I worry about […]
Time is fluid, I mean we all know that. It feels like yesterday I started Shelter In Place and last year both. This week was productive, cooking, baking, and cleaning. Plus work 🙂 This weekend alone I made: bread https://www.jamieoliver.com/recipes/bread-recipes/easy-homemade-bread/ and also Alison Roman’s: https://cooking.nytimes.com/recipes/1019152-salted-chocolate-chunk-shortbread-cookies. The cookies were great, they always are, but the bread […]
A small night storm blowsSaying ‘falling is the essence of a flower’Preceding those who hesitate — Yukio Mishima
