Questions

Dealing with Greg tonight, always exhausts me and makes me wonder “why?” Why am I nice to him, why do I make accommodations for him, why do I listen? Do I trust him?

He wants to take the tax credit for the house, and pay me the money I would get back, and so I wouldn’t lose anything money wise, but I have doubts. What happens the next two years, how do we work it out? What if he gets audited, when would I get my money? Why should I trust him, I fought for the tax credit, why would I just roll over and give it to him? Should I just keep the peace, because it is easier? I think deep down I am tired of him getting his way. Tired of the fact I maintain the house and he got to walk away, tired of dealing with his problems, never mine always his, just tired of it all.

Questions

Dealing with Greg tonight, always exhausts me and makes me wonder “why?” Why am I nice to him, why do I make accommodations for him, why do I listen? Do I trust him?

He wants to take the tax credit for the house, and pay me the money I would get back, and so I wouldn’t lose anything money wise, but I have doubts. What happens the next two years, how do we work it out? What if he gets audited, when would I get my money? Why should I trust him, I fought for the tax credit, why would I just roll over and give it to him? Should I just keep the peace, because it is easier? I think deep down I am tired of him getting his way. Tired of the fact I maintain the house and he got to walk away, tired of dealing with his problems, never mine always his, just tired of it all.

Day 14

Finally got a shoe on comfortably yesterday and worked all day in it. Slight pain, but not awful. Today is same shoes, as I cannot wear many others due to the pressure on my foot.

All in all it was an okay weekend with splashes of surreal moments. The highlight was getting a shoe on late friday afternoon and walking around my ‘garden’ picking a daffodil and then going off to run errrands. Target, bank, and Whole Foods. Whole Foods had daffodils on sale, 30 for $5! So I bought a huge bunch and they make me smile, so cheerful and my room smells like spring.

Sadly I could not go out to this week’s parties :(. No Chamber/Jungle for Alice in Wonderland, no Spot for Ritual’s Edwardian Theme. Both were things I would like to have done, but I could not have dressed up in nice shoes, or really stood for long, and definately no dancing.

Dealt with Greg though, and boy is he angry I got the tax exemption for the house this year. Still whining about it. I want to yell at him, saying he wrote out the agreement, I paid for all the changes, all the back and forth arguements he made. The divorce cost me serious money, my savings are wiped out! And still his girl friend calls me at midnight! Pocket dialing my ass! How do you pocket dial the end of the alphabet?

Last night though, I made chicken soup from scratch and granola. Tonight is chocolate cupcakes with peanut icing. And thanks to Andreas I have butternut squash soup for dinner.

Also too practice doing and teaching myself something new I am doing the 365 project on my phone. I know I am starting a little late but it is the thought and intention that counts.

Day 14

Finally got a shoe on comfortably yesterday and worked all day in it. Slight pain, but not awful. Today is same shoes, as I cannot wear many others due to the pressure on my foot.

All in all it was an okay weekend with splashes of surreal moments. The highlight was getting a shoe on late friday afternoon and walking around my ‘garden’ picking a daffodil and then going off to run errrands. Target, bank, and Whole Foods. Whole Foods had daffodils on sale, 30 for $5! So I bought a huge bunch and they make me smile, so cheerful and my room smells like spring.

Sadly I could not go out to this week’s parties :(. No Chamber/Jungle for Alice in Wonderland, no Spot for Ritual’s Edwardian Theme. Both were things I would like to have done, but I could not have dressed up in nice shoes, or really stood for long, and definately no dancing.

Dealt with Greg though, and boy is he angry I got the tax exemption for the house this year. Still whining about it. I want to yell at him, saying he wrote out the agreement, I paid for all the changes, all the back and forth arguements he made. The divorce cost me serious money, my savings are wiped out! And still his girl friend calls me at midnight! Pocket dialing my ass! How do you pocket dial the end of the alphabet?

Last night though, I made chicken soup from scratch and granola. Tonight is chocolate cupcakes with peanut icing. And thanks to Andreas I have butternut squash soup for dinner.

Also too practice doing and teaching myself something new I am doing the 365 project on my phone. I know I am starting a little late but it is the thought and intention that counts.

Day 14

Finally got a shoe on comfortably yesterday and worked all day in it. Slight pain, but not awful. Today is same shoes, as I cannot wear many others due to the pressure on my foot.

All in all it was an okay weekend with splashes of surreal moments. The highlight was getting a shoe on late friday afternoon and walking around my ‘garden’ picking a daffodil and then going off to run errrands. Target, bank, and Whole Foods. Whole Foods had daffodils on sale, 30 for $5! So I bought a huge bunch and they make me smile, so cheerful and my room smells like spring.

Sadly I could not go out to this week’s parties :(. No Chamber/Jungle for Alice in Wonderland, no Spot for Ritual’s Edwardian Theme. Both were things I would like to have done, but I could not have dressed up in nice shoes, or really stood for long, and definately no dancing.

Dealt with Greg though, and boy is he angry I got the tax exemption for the house this year. Still whining about it. I want to yell at him, saying he wrote out the agreement, I paid for all the changes, all the back and forth arguements he made. The divorce cost me serious money, my savings are wiped out! And still his girl friend calls me at midnight! Pocket dialing my ass! How do you pocket dial the end of the alphabet?

Last night though, I made chicken soup from scratch and granola. Tonight is chocolate cupcakes with peanut icing. And thanks to Andreas I have butternut squash soup for dinner.

Also too practice doing and teaching myself something new I am doing the 365 project on my phone. I know I am starting a little late but it is the thought and intention that counts.

Today

Working through my email inbox, sometimes it is not I forget the emails, it is I don’t want to face the dealing with stuff :(.

But, sorted out my investment log-ins, emailed Gretchen for landscaping advice, texted Eric Dammit for motorcycle work, emailed about getting CD shelves built.

Now to go shopping and started Noah’s Birthday Cupcakes trial run, and make Chicken Soup.

Alice in Wonderland


Tonight I went to Alice in Wonderland in 3D and IMAX! What a spectacle! I don’t think I will be rushing off to see more IMAX in 3D. I loved the 3D, and I liked the IMAX, but together they are a little much, and very overwhelming.

The movie its self was okay, not terrible, not amazing, and I think it needed to be amazing. The costumes, the sets. the look, the feel were all amazing, but the story faded in and out. The beginning was ok, the bridge between the beginning and the fall into Wonderland was weak. The Wonderland story seemed filled with ideas, but little compassion, which is a hallmark of Tim Burton’s later films I feel. The characters are almost about to touch you and you are onto another scene. I did not like the Doormouse or the March Hare :(. Then the end, from the leaving of Wonderland to the end credits sucked!

The most common complaint I have read about the movie is the lack of sticking to the original storyline, I enjoyed the blending of the two books, as Alice Through the Looking Glass is a favourite of mine. I liked the little bits from the book – the river to denote next land, the knights and pawns. But, I felt more could have been done with it, the talking flowers were dismissed, the train never appeared, the white knight was not there, none of the chess story was incorporated.

Alice in Wonderland


Tonight I went to Alice in Wonderland in 3D and IMAX! What a spectacle! I don’t think I will be rushing off to see more IMAX in 3D. I loved the 3D, and I liked the IMAX, but together they are a little much, and very overwhelming.

The movie its self was okay, not terrible, not amazing, and I think it needed to be amazing. The costumes, the sets. the look, the feel were all amazing, but the story faded in and out. The beginning was ok, the bridge between the beginning and the fall into Wonderland was weak. The Wonderland story seemed filled with ideas, but little compassion, which is a hallmark of Tim Burton’s later films I feel. The characters are almost about to touch you and you are onto another scene. I did not like the Doormouse or the March Hare :(. Then the end, from the leaving of Wonderland to the end credits sucked!

The most common complaint I have read about the movie is the lack of sticking to the original storyline, I enjoyed the blending of the two books, as Alice Through the Looking Glass is a favourite of mine. I liked the little bits from the book – the river to denote next land, the knights and pawns. But, I felt more could have been done with it, the talking flowers were dismissed, the train never appeared, the white knight was not there, none of the chess story was incorporated.

Day 6

Friday was an adventure day! I managed to drive to the Lenox Mall and have my facial at Clarins. George-Anne used the Clarisonic on me and it felt amazing, my skin felt so nice and soft. Afterwards I limped off to the Sony Store and returned my Ebook Reader power cord, they were most unhappy and tried really hard to encourage me to buy something. I successfully resisted and limped back to my car. Stopped on the way home at Whole Foods and met Matthew for lunch. I eventually meandered home and passed out on the couch for several hours as my foot was killing me.

That night we met up with Greg A and his new g/f Gwen for dinner at Ormsby a new bar in the Westside, the food was pretty good, the beer list amazing, and no smoking inside, it was just really loud. Home and to bed. I caved in to the pain and took my second Loratab of the day :(.

Next morning I felt a lot better and managed to stand for a shower, and then make a meal plan for the week:mealplan I was pretty proud of actually getting it all to work and think it all out. So then off to grocery shop and pick up mail and run some small errands. Thankfully Matthew drove :). After all was done we ended up at Carroll Street Cafe and then Anne’s house for Apples to Apples and Rock band.

Today was Spring Forward Day and work. Foot was feeling a little better, but still no putting on a shoe, so strapped up and in funny medical shoe off to work I went. The stairs at work were scary, but I did it and sat a lot of the day pricing records and running register. By six though I was pretty tired, so home for dinner: Linguine with Asparagus and Pine Nuts, and then I made Orange, Banana Crepes for dessert.

Now Matthew is trying out his culinary skills by making scones – dried cherry orange – and I am getting ready for sleep.

Day 6

Friday was an adventure day! I managed to drive to the Lenox Mall and have my facial at Clarins. George-Anne used the Clarisonic on me and it felt amazing, my skin felt so nice and soft. Afterwards I limped off to the Sony Store and returned my Ebook Reader power cord, they were most unhappy and tried really hard to encourage me to buy something. I successfully resisted and limped back to my car. Stopped on the way home at Whole Foods and met Matthew for lunch. I eventually meandered home and passed out on the couch for several hours as my foot was killing me.

That night we met up with Greg A and his new g/f Gwen for dinner at Ormsby a new bar in the Westside, the food was pretty good, the beer list amazing, and no smoking inside, it was just really loud. Home and to bed. I caved in to the pain and took my second Loratab of the day :(.

Next morning I felt a lot better and managed to stand for a shower, and then make a meal plan for the week:mealplan I was pretty proud of actually getting it all to work and think it all out. So then off to grocery shop and pick up mail and run some small errands. Thankfully Matthew drove :). After all was done we ended up at Carroll Street Cafe and then Anne’s house for Apples to Apples and Rock band.

Today was Spring Forward Day and work. Foot was feeling a little better, but still no putting on a shoe, so strapped up and in funny medical shoe off to work I went. The stairs at work were scary, but I did it and sat a lot of the day pricing records and running register. By six though I was pretty tired, so home for dinner: Linguine with Asparagus and Pine Nuts, and then I made Orange, Banana Crepes for dessert.

Now Matthew is trying out his culinary skills by making scones – dried cherry orange – and I am getting ready for sleep.

Day 3

So today I went to work for a few hours, I got what I needed done, but wow the standing really hurt and when I had to move it was pretty bad. I did not get a lot of the things done I wanted, no filing, no cleaning up sections, no sorting out the dance records which I have been working on weekly, but I did get the returns done.

Funny how many people stopped to ask me what happened, the homeless people were pretty concerned about me, asking if they could help all wanting me to get better soon. Though, I did find the hardest part is I could not just go to the bathroom, or go get some water or coffee, I just had to go without :(. But, thankfully /vatthew bought me some lunch and a mango tango odwalla.

I left after 2 and came home and just passed out for about three hours.

Day 3

oops

So today I went to work for a few hours, I got what I needed done, but wow the standing really hurt and when I had to move it was pretty bad. I did not get a lot of the things done I wanted, no filing, no cleaning up sections, no sorting out the dance records which I have been working on weekly, but I did get the returns done.

Funny how many people stopped to ask me what happened, the homeless people were pretty concerned about me, asking if they could help all wanting me to get better soon. Though, I did find the hardest part is I could not just go to the bathroom, or go get some water or coffee, I just had to go without :(. But, thankfully /v\atthew bought me some lunch and a mango tango odwalla.

I left after 2 and came home and just passed out for about three hours.

Day 2

If you have ever been to Wax’n’Facts you might have noticed our deadly stairs behind the counter. And Monday night I became a victim of them. They are uneven in height, slick and wobbly all the things you want in stairs :).

Monday night I clocked out of work and walked down them and slipped on the last two or three, not even sure. But I landed securely on my right ankle. I sat on the floor, took my shoe off, rotated my foot, whimpered in pain and decided it was not broken, but could not face getting up yet. I called Briana, cancelled gym, and thought wow, what a lot of pain! My foot already started to swell. I did notice the customer who was standing there kept asking me questions, and even though Paul’s face was filled with horror and concern, the customer ignored what was going on.

I eventually raised myself up, and decided to go home. Kindly Emily walked me to my car, as I hobbled, I kept thinking it is just a sprain, how bad can it be. I kept thinking it would pass, and just be like a minor twist. Driving home taught me it was a lot more serious. I could not push the accelerator down very far, so I inched my way along Moreland home, plus I was terrified of braking as it was a searing pain.

I made it into the house then collapsed. I did not want to eat, I felt shaky ill and slightly horrified by the fact my ankle was going blue. I spent most the night debating what to do, and losing the ability to walk. I could not move my toes and the pressure of the blanket at night was agony. Eventually at 5:30 am I woke /v\atthew  and said I needed to go the emergency room. I quick drive to Northside Hospital, where I was placed in a wheelchair and seen straight away.

By this stage we had iced my foot and elevated it and it was still pretty awful looking. Several X-rays later and I was told it was not broken, but badly sprained and I would not be standing at work for a few days. I got my foot wrapped, and shoe thingy, some Vicoden and whatever else and we were on our way home. Looking at the form they described my foot as “acute blue” in colour!