I got tested today, for the first time! Isn’t that amazing? I had the antibodies test back in September I think, or later but no real worries about exposure. Last weeks flight back to SF was the first time I was scared I was exposed. I waited 6 days to get my test, so antibodies…
Category: stream of consciousness
Ok Let’s Us Begin
Today is the first Monday of 2021, that means all healthy habits start today, all New Year Resolutions etc. What a burden to be a Monday you carry this heavy load. Practically rocks, and by Thursday it has fallen away. All the advice lately is make small changes, incremental that you can continue, what a…
2/1/2021
Sometimes sadness tastes like gummy bears, that sickly cloying taste that overwhelms you.
2021
Well I made it through 2020, not how i thought i would either. I look back at 2020’s January 1st posting, and I am shocked how happy and carefree things feel, when in reality the virus was bearing down already. How could we know so little, be so connected and yet so disconnected? Hopes and…
Congratulations
My bff got engaged! I am so happy :), my bestest friend got engaged to his long time g/f and I could not be happier. Congratulations Greg! I love you!
Death
So a distant friend, someone I know who I have not seen in a while, but still like and would hug when I see them died last week. Brian Dotson will be greatly missed, not just because he knew a million people or because he ran a nightclub in the 2000’s but rather because of…
Pity The Nation
“PITY THE NATION” Lawrence Ferlinghetti(After Khalil Gibran) Pity the nation whose people are sheep And whose shepherds mislead them Pity the nation whose leaders are liars Whose sages are silenced And whose bigots haunt the airwaves Pity the nation that raises not its voice Except to praise conquerers And acclaim the bully as hero And…
2020 Dumpster Fire
I am a racist – what a hard sentence to write out. I am not one consciously, but i have plenty of white privilege, I have lived an easy life, not constantly wondering if the police, security guards, military are going to find my life expendable. I try really hard not to judge people by…
How Long?
48 days and counting, almost 8 weeks. I have not learnt a new skill, mastered a new language, deep cleaned my apartment, gotten super fit etc. I have, cooked, eaten, slept, worked out and lived. Which is harder? People talk about grief and depression, I feel bad for them. I am sad, but not depressed,…
Badtzi
I kept feeling Badtzi around me last night, like he came back to take me with him, I miss my kitties so much, but him more than anything. He was so smart and so sweet. Maybe he misses me? And wants to come with him? It is the second death feeling I have had in…
Happy Birthday Mommy
You would be 73 today! I love you
Pink Moon
Funny how often I write about Pink Moon. The famous Nick Drake song. This year the pink moon will fall on what would have been my mom’s 73rd birthday. I miss her so much, still everyday. But, at the same time I am so glad she is not here experiencing this pandemic. I worry about…
Week 3…I think
Time is fluid, I mean we all know that. It feels like yesterday I started Shelter In Place and last year both. This week was productive, cooking, baking, and cleaning. Plus work 🙂 This weekend alone I made: bread https://www.jamieoliver.com/recipes/bread-recipes/easy-homemade-bread/ and also Alison Roman’s: https://cooking.nytimes.com/recipes/1019152-salted-chocolate-chunk-shortbread-cookies. The cookies were great, they always are, but the bread…
Mishima – Death Poem
A small night storm blowsSaying ‘falling is the essence of a flower’Preceding those who hesitate — Yukio Mishima
Rice PuddingBy AA Milne What is the matter with Mary Jane?She’s crying with all her might and main,And she won’t eat her dinner – rice pudding again –What is the matter with Mary Jane? What is the matter with Mary Jane?I’ve promised her dolls and a daisy-chain,And a book about animals – all in vain…